LOST.

firstly, I would like to address that I've removed the previous entry as whatever I type was in a moment of rage and it was rash of me to actually typed all those hurtful words. So my sincere apologies to all those I've offended. I'm sorry ):

Festival of Light was just over and I spent the day rather well in fact. Despite waking up in tiredness I managed to do all the things I aim to accomplish. My bike was healthy once again, changed some stuff required to change , I bought new clothes, street soccer shoes which lasted me more than an hour (compared to adidas shoes at 35, Nike was better ) , bought jeans and I'm a happy man. Well at least I'm contented with what I bought. From this itself , it kinda open my eyes once again that in life, our views and how we look at things affects our thinking and feelings. If I look on the negative side, it would be about the big hole it cost to my pocket but if I'm looking at the positive side (which i did ) I would be happy I bought the things I wanted/needed.

Saturday, Deepavali was spent by shopping, play soccer , watching soccer match and meeting up with fellow classmates.It feels so good to be with them again. Though only few,but the stories I've heard from experiences in attachment and the normal talks make me feel the warmth of having an awesome classmates once again. After that we went to Yishun Dam. Many good bikes there, and of course racers wannabes but the environment was good for just a casual catch up session. I felt peace there, after so long. Though i can't really reflect and think about stuffs I wanna think and just chill looking at the stars and water, the company was great nevertheless.

Recently too, I've found something i've been missing out for so long. Someone I really care and wanna be with. I don't know if it's just a crush or just a random liking . I don't know, but I wanna try if I could work something out cause I know she worth it. Afterall it's been a real long time i've been single and it felt lonely at times. I would wait, no matter how long it takes. Even if I'd be disappointed at the end of the wait. It's alright. Cause in love, we take risk.


(it's 6am in the morning and I'd slept in 24 hours so I don't know if i'm in the right mind to type all this , dont think i'm thinking straight anyway )