Yesterday was a super tiring day. In the morning, there was a soccer competition organised by my classmates however we didn't qualify for the semi-finals due to goal differences.We were the same in terms of points though. And that soccer drained hell lots of my energy. Even got me so dark that I almost became a nigger. LOL.then me and zul had lunch before we went to the gym. It's been a long time since I gymmed and yesterday gym session only made me realised that I've grown weaker.Damn.Felt so tired after that. In the night was suppose to go night cycling but my mum scolded me and opposed even though I was all set for the night. Sian. I don't think I can go cycle this rainy season since she had this mindset.
Anyway can't wait for monday to come. Bike prac and class outing.Woot.
my fingers got lazy after typing this 10th word so here is a conclusion.
Merry Christmas.
How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around
Having too many things on within a week sure wear me out real fast. Though it feels like i'm enjoying every single damn minute of my life, I really need my rest and sleep. But as for that, I don't know why I just dont feel good when I sleep. I wake up easily man and I hate it. Today was soccer at purmei and the sun is freaking scorching. Burning me right through an inch of my skin. And now I'm dark again, damn it. Taufiq got injured so I hope he recover fast enough.Wish you a speedy recovery dude.( if you're reading this ) Today also, some ass, who is gay according to Bing Chia, instead of whacking the ball, he whacked so damn hard on my shin that it got me immobilised even though it's my shin that usually injure people. Freaking hell, right on the right leg, so now, with my on and off painful feeling on my calf when I stretched, I have to bear with the painful feeling at the shin right now. I sincerely hope this pain would go anyway soon. Any later would mean I have to pay Mr.Doc a visit or else I will suffer big time when I grow old ( and all the old injuries untreated will begin to act up again. )
After that went to Jurong Point to see see look look. Tiring man, and the new jurong point is definitely big too but I hate it when I see there's so many of the same type of shop. Too many of such accessories, jewellery shops which caters to the girls always pissed me off man because I hate so many shining beads staring back at me when I look around for shops and worst case, I have no need for them at all. -.-" oh well , best place to shop is definitely still town area though.
Tomorrow, I would be going to watch Sg vs Vietnam. I really hope Sg win.After that it's msia trip with friends! I hope nothing bad happen and I enjoy myself really much there. Hopefully (:
New layout.New feel, new song, same old me.
So yesterday was my sec4 class reunion at downtown east. To be truthful, initially I have second thoughts about going there. I was pratically dragging myself to the chalet itself. To make matter worst, the long travelling time even make me feel like shit, thinking of how boring it would be at the chalet with the people from my ex-class. I keep thinking "shit this has got to be the worst chalet i'm gonna ever attend." Alistair, Steven, Clarence, those were the close buddies ( or at least used to be ) in my class and yet none of them is coming. Even Asyifah's ain't there so I thought things would be gonna be at it's worst. With all these shitty thoughts in my mind, I don't know why I'd still go. But still... I did.
And somehow I don't regret it at all.
If I have a wish, I wish I could freeze time.
I love 4H. now I really do.
So I've watched Heroes till the end of volume 3. Seriously it's getting crappy. They should seriously just end things at where it is. I don't see where is it going with the story line all messed up. Prison break is still not bad afterall.Kinda nice the recent episode. Sports Camp training turn up rate wasn't that good, only god knows why. but training was fun still. Today was tiring though. let's see what else. erm class chalet tmr. boring? I don't know but all i know is i'm gonna have fun with or without them hahaha.
On saturday was the best saturday ever. Now that i think back, i feel so carefree then. Paper just ended and having fun was all that was on my mind. We played lots of good soccer matches then, win almost all of them. hahaha but the most fucked up thing was seeing weisheng get tackled so badly in the court when I was resting. What the fuck that tackle was for also I have no idea, it's fucked up plus in a street soccer court, sliding tackle was not even supposed to be done. Those morons should seriously start training up or apply for some basic soccer trainings and learn "how to tackle safely"
Anyway, after that went to eat briyani which tasted normal duhhh and went to taufiq house to play games. Damn freaking fun cause everyone was there to play. Even rare birds like jeremy hahaha. awesome saturday man.
and today was stay home and hibernate sunday. and tomorrow or officially today is whack it all out monday.
so finally a week of burden and stress is finally over and done with. to be truthful, I wasn't really happy with the outcome of the tests. Is that really all that I'm capable of ? sigh, those common tests were the toughest one i've sat for. I'm pretty sure i put a good amount of effort there and really hope it does turns out good. gpa for this sem will surely decline for sure, it wont meet my expectation. sigh. you know how much i hate that? i hate it when people will start talking about how stupid i am, or insult my intelligence just cause i don't know some stuff in life. the feeling is fucked up, when you know nothing and there's just people out there that are bound to bring u down, somehow, intentionally or unintentionally hurt you with their words. it feels like a fucking dagger piercing through the heart when you're already trouble with so many things.always , i put up a strong front, to bring smiles on people faces because that's the least of a good deed i could do. i can't show them the weaker side of me at least not any time sooner cause they don't know that fragile side of me. all they know is that hanif who's a crazy mothafucka forever active like some monkey jumping around making a fool of himself or pointing a middle finger to something. and you know why he does that ? cause he wanted to be happy, avoid the unhappiness that's always within him. but somehow at the end of the day, when he sits behind his computer or get home on a public transport alone listening blankly to his mp3 songs, he start looking back at life, he's always still unhappy with something. sometimes there's nothing to be even unhappy about for the day but still he dont feel contented or happy. so what the fuck was lacking or am i missing ? sigh,what was it that i want.truthfully i don't know. maybe trying to be perfect was my problem. maybe it's just my mindset. whatever it is i don't know. i always read or at least people always say to other, try to be positive and all that motivational bullshit. but how do i even do that when i feel like i have nothing else worth pursuing for. why in life we have to go through all these shits that make us think and reflect so much ? all this happiness and loneliness is driving me insane. sometimes talking things out to a person might actually make a person feel better but if i were to say all these things, people would call me insane or emo . sometimes you dont even know if your friends would be there for you like they've always mention. sigh. why life's so hard to understand ? when you're all broken up inside , the best remedy is being alone.
"Stranger"
Turn Around
Turn Around and fix your eye in my direction
So there is a connection
I can't speak
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection
Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are
You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight
I'm confident
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you
I knew you could see right through me
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
And I knew just what we'd turn into
I was hopeing that you could see
Take a look at me so you can see
You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight
Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are
[x4]
Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs to make you comprehend how beautiful you are
I know that I can't make you stay
But I would give my final breathe to make you understand how beautiful you are
Understand how beautiful you are
You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight
You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
You call me a stranger
Damn it, my leg is still fucked. So what's the problem now? muscle sprain, twisted, injured or what?
I WISH I WAS A SPORT DOCTOR!
There was once a boy called Hack.He's a boy who always thinks negatively and always try to do things perfect which most of the time, turn out not so good thus making him feel sad.
Today, he saw this girl whom caught his eyes in the gym. Though she always seems kinda hot in her sport attire, that's not what that captures his attention. It was her heartwarming and captivating smile which capture his heart.It felt as if it was the smile was coming for the bottom of her heart, sincere.
Today, outside cheers, he saw her in her normal attire. He was really happy cause at that period of time, he was about to die of boredom and stress ( thinking of the test of which he wouldn't be able to do tomorrow ). Her face, her smile, totally melts Hack's heart. She look extremely adorable. She even look great wearing her specs. A sweet face that would totally mesmerize you if you stare at it for too long. As much as he wanted to know that girl, he never had the courage to initiate a conversation with her.
And now once again, he's sad, cause to him, it's like all the beautiful things in life, are never meant for him. No happy ending, no smooth sail in life. Will things be better in the future?
Maybe.
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