Big hurray for me! Now I just can't wait to look forward to the coming Monday. I received a call this morning saying I could collect my bike on Monday! Yay! Spark is my new love. With sport rims, racing footrest, oversize disc brake, new IU unit, free services and no GST charge, buying that bike for 3k is a steal! FBB 6744M is my license plate. woot! Can't wait for it, i'm nervous, excited plus a little bit of scared since i'll be joining the dangerous traffic soon enough.
Help! I can't change my blog song! Damn it man, I want to change to korean song right now lor, i think I will try it again later.
Hahah but anyway today test went well although I only studied for 15minute for the 20% test.Honestly I came into the lecture hall with just expectation to pass borderline but then the teacher is damn awesome that he allowed us to copy although he didn't really mention it. HAHAH.
Went home early cause I didnt have the mood to hear people nag today. Don't know, i've been feeling moody lately.
Anyway I watch "We Got Married" till episode 41 now, it feels damn sad cause the Ant couple had to break-up. It's damn saddening that I tear. Though it a make-believe couple, it feels really sad cause I felt that Crown J and Seo In Young had something true in that show. Their feelings were true though on the screen for sure. Just look at Crown J buying 321 roses and he said propose to her! Well that was sometime ago I hope that would be dating now! Looking at Kim Hyun Joong couple depart from the show the past episode was saddening as well that I teared also. Damn, i'm feeling sentimental nowadays or what? NONONO, must not soften up Hanif. stay stone cold.
Anyway let's hope tmr would rain in the morning so that I could sleep soundly and wear jacket to school alright! The weather's been too hot recently.
these words are forbidden....
no matter how hard I try to look at things on the bright side,
there's always bound something missing.
I reflected and I realised...
it was you that I was missing right from the start.
a hole in my heart, I could never replace.
damn , i need a gf soon. hahaha, common test again soon! semester ending! bike coming! fasting month coming! I wish there's more look forward to! :)
Aerosmith - Cryin'
There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine..
so it's week 2 of schoool and the start of the week has been really lucky for me.
Firstly found an Mp3, okay la, not bad super compact. got in built speaker somemore LOL.
then woke up pretty late that i miss the first two hour of school but I still got my attendance cause the lecturer assume everyone was present during the lecture. HAHAH, DOPE SHIT MAN!
well today monday blues to the max though, all my classmates so tired that they dont even feel like gyming that I had to gym alone. Hahaha but nevertheless always meet some pals in the gym though. Gym was tiring though, slowly getting heavier and heavier. I need to get fitter hahaha, my classmates are saying my breathing recently very heavy macam wearing oxygen tank like that -.-" didn't know about that though, maybe due to chronic illness but heck uh, hopefully everything is fine soon.
it's gonna be a long week ahead and I hope everything go on smoothly! :D
after all this years, I'm back to square one still.
In fact, haven't really move on from point 1.
that's fucked up.
but anyway, been getting back results for CT.
so far so good, some were suprisingly good (:
and some were expected.
more to come,hopefully it's good.
holiday is over but i'm still feeling it, the laziness.
fitness for me is going downhill since I haven't really hit the weights for some time,a month probably.
and i hate it when people say " hanif, you shrink already "
yea that's fine but fuck you when you make fun of my height alright, bitches.
so school start already, napfa is coming, i'm hitting the gym again.
faster, stronger this time.
my application for the bond with home team was unsuccessful.
part of me feels happy cause I'm not really sure if police is the kind of career I want.
and part of me feels bad and sad, cause firstly I disappoint my dad, but fuck you la, i think it's my life and I have a say at my own future? I don't even know what I wanna do and here at home you're giving me propagandas and speech of what is best for me. and also, sad cause I couldn't get the monthly allowance, crazy money for just studying honestly but yea fuck it.
what ever life has in store for me, just bring it on alright.
better hope good things and thrills come in fast cause I'm getting bored of it wondering and thinking about random stuffs aimlessly.
it gets real tiring.
and ya, today my friend ask me a very interesting question, man.
"hanif, when was the last time you dated"
really got me thinking real deep into this.
the answer : years back.
now how fucked up is that.
fuck.
I just feel like cursing in today's entry.
if you think this is vulgar and unlike me, and i'm just moody...oh well,two words.
fuck you.
Sunday trip to malaysia with buddies was fun. I wouldn't say it was really really fun cause I was mostly tired from the travel and stuff but still the activities we did were pretty laid back and it was a good chill out session. Went to see the mall there too and had domino's pizza which was like 3 times better than pizza hut. Went for a foot massage too, a traditional thai one, while the others went for a full body massage, damn it if only i have more cash I would be enjoying a good full body massage too, hahah, but still it was good, felt that my leg was better ! and no, please don't have any funny ideas, there was no special services or whatever so don't even wander off your mind to there alright. Besides that, we had some real good lunch and tea break at some shop, ate like a rich shit for a day before getting all broke by the nightfall hahah. Oh well, hopefully next weekend would be something fun again. or maybe something new? car rental maybe?
we all need a break.
cause I'm too busy chasing my own dreams and needs,
I forget totally about the matter of heart.
forgotten how to love, care and concern.
all that's left within me is the coldness that's been there for years.
I was wondering if you could see that you're the only one who could make me feel complete.
As much as I would like to do something very much, I'm always afraid of the consequences of it, or rather, just the thoughts of what the outcome would be is just fucking with my mind too much which is why I think right now, I'm living a life with potential regrets.
I don't like this, I need to take risk.
Common test is next week.
I lost my voice, my leg is aching and I'm burnt out for the week. So much things unknown and need to be studied for. I'm officially screwed for this semester.
Let's hope last minute wonders can perform miracle for me.
In life, no matter how hard we try to please everyone , there is always bound to be some misunderstandings and not everyone would be pleased with you. For some, a small joke with no intention of harm could be offending, but to others it could be hilarious. Likewise, for some, they may mistook my optimism, carefree behaviour to be something childish in fact. But it's okay , misunderstandings can happen but all we can do best is, to be who we are . We can't afford to just change ourselves just because we couldn't fit in other people's shoe or make them happy cause they're always friction somehow. If we do change, at the end of the day, are we happy with who we are, and most importantly, is that who you want to be ?
Today, I've watched night at the museum 2 and I must say it's not disappointing at all, in fact I would rate it 4/5 stars. It's one of the movie I could sit even with a headache and still enjoy laughing to it. No doubt it's meant to be a comedy/action show, but still, it has small parts which contains meaningful stuff. Imagine, to you, it could be just another night guarding the museum, but to others , it was actually her adventure of life. It was one of this part near the ending which really captures my attention. They say "The key to happiness, true happiness is doing what you love most " which is true. Unless we found what we love doing, we wouldn't be that happy after all.
So to my friends who are unhappy, don't lose yourself.
Find your meaning in life, what you love doing most and be happy.
Kyson has posted one of the best article I've read so far but since I thought that not all read his blog as you don't know him, I thought I would share it with you guys here.
A Message by George Carlin:
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete... ALWAYS